Showing posts with label dhiman. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dhiman. Show all posts
11:52 PM

I'm at War

Life is a war zone,

And I’m at war!

A war with myself,

A struggle within my shell

Striving to shed the shackles of fear

Blistering within me,

Stoned by the ice cold melancholy;

Strewn here and there...

Why can’t I feel free?

Blinded by the billowing haze;

of dread and anxiety,

I’m turning into a numskull

With my hands held empty,

I’m wedged in a seemingly endless tunnel.

Will someone ever staunch this pain?

O divine redeemer!

Release me from this worldly ordain.

Let me cut loose-

the strings of endless deluge,

Of suffering and death

Allow me come in your refuge…

Hunched with sins, I’m drifting towards my pyre

The chisel of agony is shredding my vigor

Slick with blood, it has pierced my heart

Bit by bit, it has torn me apart.

But now, I’m weary of quarrelling;

with my perceptions, with my ailing...

Burning every moment in the fire of fears

Too fierce to be quenched with tears

O divine redeemer!

Rekindle my soul, cease the fire

burning within me

And set me free from the world, so loony…


- by Rupali

3:23 AM

All that matters is trust

“Trust” is not just a five letter word, it is an emotion that fortifies every relationship. Love alone is too scanty to strengthen a bond. For a relationship the acid test is not how much do we love, but how much do we trust.

We need to trust our kids, our partner, our parents, our fellows, or even our pets for that matter. Any time you lose trust in a relationship, it will never be the same again. You can’t trust everyone all the time, agreed. But don’t let such conviction poison your otherwise well-honed rapport with others. Trust is akin to a crystal vase, once it is shattered, it’s broken for good.

When I look back on my own experience, I realize what I have lost due to suspicion. It’s like a cancer that has no cure. It destroys happiness and ruins relations.

Jealously is another negative trait which indicates that trust is weak. While on one hand it corrodes trust, it also encourages other negative emotions like anger, melancholy, greed, envy and in worse cases criminal tendencies. You probably are aware of all this, just that you refuse to acknowledge. But why?

Let’s not live in denial…let’s face it!

We feel jealous to see our mate talking closely with a friend, to see our parents showering love on others, it seems almost impossible to control our feelings. We all live a false sense of possession and insecurity.

My husband often comes late, is he dating some other woman?

Why my girlfriend keeps looking at other attractive guys. Don’t I look good?

Such questions are nothing, but a figment of our jealousy and distrust. Try to trust. Don’t let assumptions drive you to the edge, find reasons. Don’t jump to conclusions just because YOU-FELT-THAT-WAY.

For love to survive trust is a must and jealousy, under no circumstances, should creep in.

Whenever suspicion raise its head, nip it on the bud! Revive and rebuild trust in your relationships, no matter with whomsoever. Try to look at things in a wider perspective,

escape that tunnel vision. Open up to the close because you deserve to live an unencumbered life, free from such harrowing feelings.

Put the past behind you see the vast space around you. Open your mind so that trust can grow.